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holla everyone, how's your sunday? i hope sunday treat you well today. well, i just finished reading Miley Cyrus's Miles To Go and she inspires me to write this post. keep asking what the purpose of this post, because i just want to share my 7 things. this.

7 things i'm craving the most


1. brand new mansion (i wanna move to Beverly Hills or London or New York if i could! this small town really sucks--ah well, not really actually)
2. an extremely smart yet charming big brother.oh, and nice slash humble. i'd rather have a big brother than having a boyfriend.
3. longer hair! and skinnier body (duh). if i had them, i'll make a fashion blog soon :D
4. iPad! Mac Air! or Galaxy Tab! and brand new phone like Galaxy S II or Blackberry Empathy
5. PORSCHE! AND IT'S 100% MINE!
6. a lomo camera. i'm saving some of my money to buy it right now
7. a lot of The Smurfs dolls!

7 things i must do before i die


1. pray a lot and do the best for erase up my sins. i wanna face my God with a heart like a newborn baby.
2. buy my parents a luxury mansion and make them proud of me
3. getting married. of course not now! maybe 10 years later. and raise my own child!
4. be a nice, humble, talented, famous and adorable teenage star! livin' in my own fabulous world ohyeeaaah B-)
5. make my own fashion line and make people realize that fashion is NOT only for skinny people.
6. make a big wave for saving the world from global warming! and rescue those innocents animals. gosh, people who harmed them are HEARTLESS.
7. open a bakery!

another kind of freaky wednesday

another wednesday photography party! yay! i love this club so muchoooo. you shouldn't ask for more, because i really love photography & as a busy 9th grader student, i barely have time to take some cool photos outside my school anymore. okay enough said, here, i brought you some of my photos :)

notes: should i make this blog as a photography blog? because i only have one SLR camera and the type is just Canon 1000D.

i wish she's my lil sistah.

Maddi Jane! Yes, I've nothing to describe her but cute. Oh, and talented, too! She's just twelve but she has such an amazing voice.
Here, because my heart is made of gold (?) i brought you some of her video cover.

country fiesta

If I die young,

Bury me in satin.

Lay me down on a bed of roses.

Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song.

Well, another song posting. This song titled If I Die Young by The Band Perry. I think it's awesome because i love to imagine things at night, like, if i die in the age of 14, what will people do for me? Will they cry me a river or....having another party? You know, i'm such an annoying creature.

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

Will my mom cry for me? Hahaha. Okay, okay, really, i love to exaggerating something. LOL forgive meee u,u


And oh! I also a fan of Taylor Allison Swift! Hahahah her song "Picture To Burn" is stuck in my brain. Because I've just "broke up" with my "ex-crush". The story is just exactly like that song!

So go and tell your friends that I'm obsessive and crazy
That's fine I'll tell mine that you're gay!
By the way...
I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're
Just another picture to burn

just strolled my head into fully formed

okay just strolled my head into fully formed. i have something that stuck inside my chest and i have to get it out. okay, not that much. but this is what i exactly feel.
they said the girls who loved by such of many guys are quiet. QUIET--bitch please!!! and some teachers at my school begged me so. yeah baby, i'm an extremely active bitch. but why? reality bumps me that i have to grow up my mind.
i want a freedom. i won't grow up. if i had a time turner, i'll back to 10 again. oh, no, i got bullied when i was 10. 
but why?
why am i growing up?
why troubles always chase me?
why can't i be happy?
i miss my real smile like seriously. my pals told me so. they all stated that i'm faking a smile for the last few months.
i won't be an adult. i won't faking a smile. i won't falling in love. yeah, love. when i was an innocent snotty little kid i thought it'll be great but i've to swallowing the fact that it will never lead me to the happily ever after. that doesn't make sense.


oh! and i also made a poetry. i haven't told you that i'll make a goth literature, huh? hahaha if god allowed me to finished it, i'll post it when i'm a high-schooler. the spoiler of it will come up later :)

She’s alone on her own

In this strange place you call home

She’s been yearning for a way out

So she find’s comfort in the blade

As it glades across her skin

She feels so in control

When she see’s the blood drip, she comes to life

The feeling is so good

It’s the only happiness she has

Cause she’s all alone in this place you call home…


have you catch the point yet? yes. self-harm.